Pity Party

Haha. Someday, hopefully, I'll look graceful when I run. Like a gazelle. Anyway, I'm fairly unmotivated today. You would think that I'd have energy the day before a long weekend (I get Veteran's Day off) but nope! Even good music isn't working. Not entirely sure why. It's probably the weather; it's cold and rainy and generally gross. It could also be that I did not get a whole lot of sleep last night. The hubs and I did another back-to-back. We did Strike and hot yoga and didn't get home until after 10. By the time I showered and felt relaxed enough to sleep, it was already midnight. Maybe I can take a nap before the gym later.

Today I have my free "fitness assessment" at Lifetime. I'm a little bit scared and thought about rescheduling it but there's no point in delaying the inevitable. I might as well just do it, get it over with, and quit worrying about it. I want to talk to them about what I am (possibly) doing wrong. I have been consistently working out for at least an hour 4-5 days a week for about 4 weeks now and been eating fairly good too. But the number on the scale still fluctuates. Jay says I'm not working out enough to burn off what I'm eating but I've been counting calories. I've been trying to eat more fruits and veggies. Maybe I'm not eating enough? I know what the scale says doesn't take into account muscle and I've lost about half an inch from my waist over the last couple of weeks. But for some reason that's not all too comforting. Although today my "skinny" jeans that I bought when I first started losing weight fit better today. I think by Thanksgiving they should fit perfectly.

Sometimes it's totally discouraging. I read all these blogs/watch shows where people lose weight quickly by eating healthy, working out, cutting out soda, etc. I'm doing all these things and yet nothing seems to be working. Granted, they usually have a LOT more to lose than me - like 100 lbs more - but it's still frustrating. Oh well. I'm trying to look at it more as I need to get healthy vs. I need to get skinny.

I've heard that a lot of stress will make you keep the weight on. For those of you who don't know, I'm a completely high-strung stress ball. I'm seriously trying to calm the *eff* down and relax. I think that's why I'm starting to enjoy yoga so much. I feel at peace once class is over...even though during class I'm screaming obscenities in my head when the instructor holds a pose for too long. Hahaha.

Ok. My pity party is over. Time to be positive again :-) I'm so looking forward to this weekend. Spending time with friends, Harry Potter (YAY!), and poker. Woot!